Thursday, June 30, 2011

6/30/11

Not Alone
By Tawny Nordstrom


I am leaking water from the tips of my carmel hair wondering why I feel dirty from the shower I just took.
How should I move on? Frozen; frozen somewhat in time but mostly in feeling.
Where do I belong? I drag myself over to the TV or computer in hopes that I might be able to drain my outrageous thoughts into the realm of reality shows or clicking through the mind numbing photos on a social-networking page.
Why can't I feel anything? Numb. The distractions work for awhile but bring me to the conclusion of nothing.
I learned-nothing. Improved on-nothing, spent time doing-nothing and now I feel like I accomplished-nothing.

I step outside. I feel the warm breeze. Isn't it ironic how soothing wind is?
My arms take afloat and reach for freedom and my heart breathes in.
I imagine how huge this world is, how many people there are, and how many others are on their porch wondering the same thing.
I am here...and I am just like you.



- - -
I am an independent woman dependent on love. I find beauty, originality and comfort in arts and chocolate.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

6/29/11

Journey Of Florence And Luke
By John Guy Cole


Her house was full of ghosts, and it scared her. Around every corner was another boogeyman, in every room another reminder. The darkest moments of her life crept through the empty building. The hands, the smell of sour beer and old whiskey, the scratch of whiskers...and then she met him.


He was blessed with demons. They followed him and mocked his steps. At any given time he would be confronted with his sins and mistakes. He never knew anything but being hunted and haunted, and it was his own damn fault. Then, though, he met her.


A Starbucks on every corner, and in every one someone who will change your life. The hard part is finding the one that holds the person that will change your life for the better, that will heal old wounds. A random smile, a happenchance brushing of fingertips. Just the right song comes on that makes you look up and into the eyes of your One. Your own personal One is elusive and tiptoes around the edges of your life. She was his One, and he hers.


He was old. He had spent his youth drinking and smoking and fucking, and it showed in every crease of his face. He looked 40 at 30, and walked with a cane, always watching for the demons behind him. Books were his forte, music his passion.


She was young and dumb and inexperienced. And innocent, oh so innocent, and this was her saving grace. You met her and wanted to care for her, to give you a project and joy. Few people's hobbies were their lives, and you wanted her to be yours. Your life, I mean, not hobby. That's more appropriately known as stalking.


When he walked into that Starbucks in that little town she was already enjoying a caramel macchiato at a table in the corner. She looked up from her phone when he walked in and turned back immediately without interest in what she'd seen. He only saw the cute barista at the counter. Turning on his charm he flirted shamelessly with her and achieved absolutely nothing. Embarrassed but undaunted he took a seat a couple tables away from her, and sat to read the newspaper and do the crossword. Not really paying attention to anything else, the music faded into the background.


“I wanna love ya, and treat you right/I wanna love ya, every day and every night...” With the first lyrics of “Is This Love” came a smile and a look up from the paper to see who else was enjoying it. She happened to glance up at the same time for no apparent reason and saw him smiling. With a smile the first foundations of love are poured, and this was no exception. They found themselves trapped in the moment as the bustle of the coffeeshop fell away. It was just them and the distance and the music, and the moment was perfect.


The man was not unaware of the significance of this and took advantage of it. He picked up his coffee, stood, and walked over to her, asking if he could sit down. She said yes, and they talked for hours about nothing, and it was glorious. I'm just kidding. He made a spectacular ass of himself, but she thought he was funny and kinda cute. After a half hour or so they both had to leave, but he asked if she came here regularly. She responded that he would have to see.


He had no choice, because he wanted nothing more than to see her again, so he started living there. Between 8 and 8 he did nothing but sit and read and write in Starbucks. He worked from home, so this wasn't much of an issue. Finally, after a week of waiting, she came through the door. He almost missed her. Drinking so much coffee made him spend a lot of time in the bathroom, and she was about to walk out the door when he left his own. He practically ran to her, and made an ass of himself yet again. It was quickly becoming a pattern.


This time she blessed him with her name: Florence. He swooned inwardly, but somehow maintained his composure externally. Probably not as well as he thought because she was standing there waiting for his, which he had inexplicably kept to himself. Luke.


Luke's thoughts at this moment:


She had struck him dumb with her every action and every smile and every laugh. He wanted to curl himself up in her scent and life forever.


Every moment thereafter was a whirlwind. Their first date. Their first kiss. Their first...intimate moment. Glorious and joyful and wonderful and awesome in every way. Every moment was fraught with peril. Florence, convinced that her past would ruin her current and future happiness. Luke, positive his already had. They tread lightly around each other for their own benefit, but slowly, surely, their defenses slipped and then they were within each others keeps and they were unguarded and shit got real.


As scared as they were they allowed themselves to fall in love, although they didn't speak their trepidation to each other, and barely acknowledged it themselves. Then, though, it caught up to them. Luke ordered a whiskey at the bar they were at and had neglected to shave that morning. Florence felt his hand on her leg and smelled the whiskey and felt his whiskers on her cheek when he kissed her and she freaked out and left and didn't come back and he was dumbstruck and empty without her. He didn't even know it, but she was the support he had always wanted and needed. She had become his reason for living, for leaving the house in the morning, for working, for being. He knew it now.


Luke fled. He went to her place and she wasn't there. He went to her work and she wasn't there. He went to all the places she went, but she wasn't at any of them. Resigned to the fact her wouldn't see her again that night, he went to Starbucks for a newspaper and there she was. Sitting with a caramel macchiato and crying to herself. He asked if he could sit down and she nodded. He sat in silence, waiting for her to compose herself.


Florence showed Luke the boogeymen, and then stopped speaking. He got up, bought a pack of gum, and put it all in his mouth, asking if she could still smell the whiskey. She smiled, and said no, but that it was too late. The damage was done, and so was she. She couldn't be with him any more, and would always have that association in her mind whenever she touched him. He said okay. He didn't beg, didn't cry. At least, not in front of her. He got up from the table, left the coffeeshop, and walked to his car. He got in, started it, drove down the street, stopped, and let the emotion wash over him. Once the initial onslaught passed, he wrote something in the notebook that held all his ideas for work. It wasn't found until the tow company had already moved his car to the dump and it was being crushed when the notebook fell out.


It said: “I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bed, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.”


He never made it to his bed. The passage is of course a little unclear, since he was her boyfriend, but maybe it was just from a book and stuck in his mind. He loves her still, even through death, and she realized her mistake too late. Florence still loves Luke, though she's with another, and every time it rains, for some reason, she is reminded of him and smiles.


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John Guy Cole enjoys the soothing dulcet tones of Elliot Smith, Bob Marley, and Frank Zappa. And whiskey. Can't forget the whiskey.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

6/28/11

Ace
By Laura Maddox


Reds and yellows memorize,
As I watch your fire rise,
I see anger in your eyes.

On this night in late September
Every second I hear a timber,
broken down with fires ember.

Think of memories to erase.
I can’t believe I ran this race
but it’s a test I’ll have to ace.

My heart will have to sharpen,
I’ll let rage out with ink and pen.
Why did I ever let you in?

When you proposed with that stone,
I should’ve known by your tone
You only wanted me to own.

Love is not a purchase,
Or a never ending chase,
You treat me like a jack while I should be an Ace.


- - -
I'm Laura Maddox, a 19-year-old sophomore at Appalachian State University. I love to write, drink coffee, watch movies, cook, read and dream about one day living in a big city. I've never been in love but I don't let that stop me from writing love poems!

Monday, June 27, 2011

6/27/11

Photographs
By Raj Shekhar Sen



Picture 5

You were to leave for London
and had to reapply for the passport,
you look a little older
and your eyes seem a little swell.
Perhaps you did not sleep well.
You are wearing this unlikely yellow, how??
Its strange that they do not make people
smile for passports, strange.

I received your message,
Just before the airlines announced for departure,
It said Goodbye and a smiley.
I remember that I couldn't smile though,
I tried.

I don't remember
how I have this picture but I do..
..But I don't have you.


Picture 4

It was totally out of context,
It's at your home sometime in December
a few years ago,
It was Sharmishtha
your little sis's engagement
and we were a little late,
I wasn't at home for last two days
and you wanted to go together and called me up.

This picture has you
in a maroonish sari with golden hues,
You had started to gain little weight
and the smile almost looks madeup
but then who can forget
that you were the Drama Champ in JNU.

I almost hated you for this picture
but kept quite.
How can we be so preposterous to smile

for a picture when we...

We never did talk
all the while there, did we?
To look at it now ..you still look worthy of the name Cleopatra.


Picture 3

On our anniversary,
this picture was taken
in Mumbai near Tara road.
I believe we went to Marriot that night
and into Enigma because you insisted.

I can see the cool sea breeze
letting your hair fly
you look at the camera
the way you looked at me then,
the eyes of Love.

I remember you saying, "Don't act like an oldie
and you kissed me inside the Enigma."
Beside Richard Marx was singing "Right Her Waiting.."
I almost fell in love again.

You wore this Cyanish shaded top.
How cloth conscious you were
your dress radiates sea.

We had a small fight
that evening for me being late
on our anniversary.
..Perhaps we made love that night.


Picture 2

JNU campus Delhi,
You stand besides a peacock.
Remember we posted this picture
in our wedding album
calling it the queen of Aravali
or was it the queen of Ridge?

You have both your hands towards me
and you were mouthing I love you baby
while we were taking this picture,

the light green kurta
goes so well with the Campus green.
You had won
a University level Dramatics thing
Kallol it was, I guess.

The picture is crumpled
but you still radiate yourself through it.
You remind me of Anne Bancroft here
perhaps more beautiful.
..Remember How I couldn't let go of you then, But I did...


Picture 1

This picture is black and white
and it has no connection with me
but I have it
you were ten years old then
Baba holds your hands
and you wore polka dots, perhaps red.
Its in your old home at Saltlake.

You look so happy,
I had promised to give you the same happiness
all through our life, this way
on our wedding night
and you had just cried and smiled into my arms.

In this picture you smile
the same way you did
while enacting Portia
and winning the best actress award
at kallol in JNU,
you lost that smile
somewhere between this and London.

You didn't know you would loose it, did you?
when we first met at JNU,

when i called you Cleopatra,
my own Cleopatra and you smiled,
when we held hands
and spent our evenings at Haze, Delhi.
I still have that smile of yours with me...

I do...


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Sunday, June 26, 2011

6/26/11

If Not Love, Then Pity
By Joe Jones


The hour chimed in its crisp throat of noon, and the sun had just begun to settle its tired body across the horizon, leaving the sky a scattered mixture of confused shades of dreary blues.


The scene of the descending sun could be seen by two fair-headed persons, one a man and the other a woman. These two were located in a city quite like those seen and heard of today, but this isn’t a tale of ordinary ones such as these.


Somewhere far off in a place made many times transparent to all alien views, a wonderful star, pointed and studded, twirled soundlessly in the void of space.



Within this star, situated on the banks of a timeless river that had twinkling rocks which littered its surface, could be found one figure of a girl.



This one, she watched the river, as the hour struck the cord which held back the throngs of morning.



In a short time, the sky, which had just as much a sparkle to it as the river, began to shine with a subtle glow.


The girl was stunned, utterly captivated by all she saw such that she hardly noticed the coldness of something that slipped about her neck swiftly.


She spun about fast, her eyes wounded with shock.


“My apologies. I shall take my leave now.” said the tall, limber man that stood there. Though he was fairly covered in many manners of knitted tops and overly baggy sweats that covered even his shoes, a heavy cloak that was a russet of vagueness, and a hood that hid his face, the girl had recognized him.


“Hupbettle,” she called to him. “Why have you come?” And then, she remembered, as she had drawn upon a step which agitated it, that there was something foreign upon her neck.


Her hands went to it, but he had called for her to stop.


“Don’t look at it.” he said. She heard something awkward in his voice, but couldn’t really place upon it any labels.


“Why not, Hupbettle?” she asked, truly wanting to know. Her hands had fallen back to her sides, but they itched to palm the substance clinging to her neck.


“Because. I just changed my mind is all.” he said.


Hupbettle was quick, and in a second he had snatched whatever it was back without the girl feeling so much as a thread of the item’s fabric.



“But, Hupbettle, wait.” she called after him. He stopped in mid-slump, for he walked along with a slight hunch in posture, and he turned around.



“What is it?” he asked. The glowing from the rising celestial crown had spread its ivory touch to the waters, shining over the already shimmering rocks beyond the brilliance that caused instant blindness, and now Hupbettle’s outfit shone also in this vibrant light.



Except his torso and hood.



“I think I deserve to know what that thing was at least. After all, you did throw it on me without asking or anything.” said the girl.



“What good is asking, Sareene, when the answer is always no?” Hupbettle said.



She nearly gulped, repulsed by a thought that had warped her away from her standing-spot and into his strong arms. Sareene looked away, but, fearing blindness, she immediately turned back to him.



“Well, at least tell me what it was. My mind has become troubled thanks to it.” she said.

Hupbettle sighed, but he agreed at the same time. His one hand held itself out, allowing a chain of loose-fitting silver to dangle from his fingers.



“It’s a charm. I bought it to ensnare you and bind you to me, for my heart beats each day for you, Sareene.” he said. At the mention of heart, her own began to rapidly endure its keep. But, her stomach violently refused this with a groaning whine.



Sareene observed the chain until Hupbettle hid it away in a pocket.


“Why not use it then?” she said. Hupbettle sniffled, while the glow from the sky worked its way up through the buttons in his cloak.



“I feared its defects and losing even your friendship if it failed.” he said.



Sareene advanced to him, noticing that he had drawn backward with each spoken word.

“But, what shall you do? If this of your heart is true, and you are reluctant to try your charm, what will become of you?”



Hupbettle turned his back on her, sniffling and stifling a further outburst.


“Do you remember me from long ago?” he asked.


"Yes.” Sareene replied.


“Whenever I needed to drink or hide from bullies—”


“I helped you.” she finished.


“Yes. I think this is why I love you so. I simply cannot imagine a world without your existence, possibly because my world cannot exist without you in it. You breathed life into me.” Hupbettle said, seemingly astonishing himself with the words as if he had never seriously thought of what he now said.


“And this is why you refuse to harness your charm?” Sareene asked.


Hupbettle, without moving his body, gestured an arm behind him, seemingly pointing beyond Sareene.


“Just look. I made all of that for you. Unlike those suitors who will quarrel for your hand, I care of your desires and your dreams.”


Hupbettle was crying now, a painful sound to hear from a large man such as him.


“Hupbettle…I don’t know what I should say to you.”


“Because you find no love in your soul for me.” Hupbettle filled in.


“No! No, that’s not it at all.”


“Yes, it is.”


Hupbettle turned back around. The light from above immediately sank underneath his hood, illuminating the dull, coarse edge of a chin and several jagged crags above it that might have been a mouth.


“Hupbettle…”


“It’s fine. I knew as much. I had thought it over before I bought the charm. But, I shall not try it.”

The burst of glass shattering sounded as the charm fell in little pieces into the grass of the bank.

“Hupbettle, did you ever plan to use that on me?” Sareene asked. He shook negatively. “So your visit, and this magnificent light and sparkles were all for nothing?”


“They were for you. And no. This visit wasn’t for nothing at all. I have one final thing to ask of you, Sareene Almir. Please take my hand.”


Sareene reached out and clasped her small hand onto Hupbettle’s large, rough hand. She winced when a callus of his palm sliced into her frail skin, but did not let go.


“What is it you ask now of me? I have told you I cannot bless you with love, Hupbettle.” Sareene said, desperately trying to free her hand from the sharp teeth of Hupbettle’s. He held more tightly.


“I ask not of love. You have already spoken of that, and your heart has agreed. But, I still have one thing to ask of you, even though I am sure I shall never see you wed to me or pregnant with my underlings. This thing is of a small, measurable token. Surely, you can permit me this. Surely!”


“What is it?” Sareene begged, her eyes painfully welled up with fattened tears.


Hupbettle fell to his knees, his shoulders trembling, his hand free from Sareene’s bloody palm.


“Just…bless me with…if not love, then your pity, which is the closest I’ll ever see of your fairest of gifts. Might I receive this or is my soul too tainted for this reward as well?” he said.


Sareene felt something jab at the inside of her chest, and then, the world as she saw it, after another such jab, went black.


Hupbettle heard her falling, and though he had not beheld it, he zoomed to his feet and caught her. He could literally see the life pouring from her face as the color drained out, faster than the tears ran down his face.


His fangs slid out from under the crags of his lips, and these oozed wickedly, but, he did not sink these into the fair Sareene. Instead, he only watched, though this was especially painful for him.

In a mere several moments, her mouth no longer forced in breaths and her eyes were free.

Hupbettle looked down and scooped up a handful of glittering pieces of silver, and then he carried her, up the hills, across the bridge, and back to the small village where she had lived.


And those who saw him there all tried to shelter him and care for him, for he spewed out vomit uncontrollably, and his skin had become pale and discolored.


Gray tears streamed down from his eyes, and though it was well-known to them that this man could devour a person in an instant, they could not hate him.


Hupbettle was roped down, but he broke through the fetters, frightening everyone. However, once he was free, he only voiced a painful sorrow to the sky, which had brightened further.

No one dared to stop him, for how could they?


“Sareene! I’d die a thousand miserable deaths if you’d return to life!” he cried. “Sareene! SAREENE!”


He went on until the sky dimmed hours later and Sareene’s corpse had been taken for cleansing.

“Pity me.” said Hupbettle. A narrow slit across his throat began to heal, and the wounds he had inflicted on his wrists had already sealed themselves shut.


He didn’t know if she heard his desperate cries or his promises, but he was certain that the gods ignored him completely.


And so, it was then that Hupbettle placed himself flat on his back. His purpose had been lost to him, and yet there was still a faint glimmer of something resting within his soul that informed him of revival.


Unfortunately, the voice of this had not come from Sareene, and Hupbettle would hear none of it.


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Joe, when he's not cloud-surfing or planet bungee-jumping, can usually be found in a classroom snoring in a puddle of drool. Still, he's a good student (somehow) and when he's not bored, he can really make it happen (depending on what "it" is). He also enjoys chocolate statues and Mluinian Mu cakes. His work appears in Eschatology, Yesteryear Fiction, Orion's Child.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

6/25/11

Some Loss to Gain
By Vivekanand Jha


I am living only

For the promise and swear

That I had taken

At the time of putting

Vermillion over your head;



And one time Energy and vigour

That entered and conserved

Into my whole body

When first time my hand

Clasped with your hand

At the time of

Making circling round of sacrificing fire.



Every time I see shyness in your eyes

All of my limbs

Are rejuvenated and refreshed;

And restored in natural order

Like a computer does

When it is subjected to reset.



When our eyes meet

Oscillator of the body generates

Unfathomable and invisible carnal frequency

Through our visual antennas;



Which mixing with each other

Creates a strong magnetic field

That makes us sandwiched

And we feel flow of emotional current

Of its peak power

With some loss to gain.


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Vivekanand Jha is a poet and research scholar from Darbhanga, Bihar, India. He is Diploma in Electronics, Certificate in Computer Hardware and Networking, MA in English, and is also doing Ph. D on the poetry of the noted Indian English poet Jayanta Mahapatra from Lalit Narayan Mithila University Darbhanga. He is son of noted professor, poet and award winning translator Dr. Rajanand Jha (Crowned with Sahitya Akademi Award, New Delhi). He is the author of four books of poetry: Hands heave to harm and hamper, Spam: A Satire on E-Sex, Songs of Innocence and Adolescence, My Poems Falter and Fall and Time Moves Clockwise Only. His works have been widely published in the magazine round the world like Pagan Imagination, P & W (Poetry and Writing), Danse Macabre, Vox Poetica, Writing Raw, Whisper publication, Tribal Soul Kitchen, Winamop, Literature India, Mother Bird, Retort Magazine, Holy Rose Review(HRR), Munyori Poetry Journal, Flutter Literary Journal, Taylor: Prose & Poetry, The Fullosia Press, Eclectica Magazine, Write Between the Lines, The Adirondack Review, Eudaimonia Poetry Review, Nagaland Post, World Audience Publishers, The Morung Express, Fresh Literary Magazine, Maverick Magazine, Cliterature, Spoken War, Inclement Poetry Magazine, World Salad Poetry Magazine, South Jersey Underground, Mississippi Crow Magazine, Pink Mouse, Censored Poets, Reflections, Future Earth Magazine, Pandora’s Imagination, Pennsylvania Literary Journal, CANTARAVILLE Quarterly Magazine, Locust Magazine, Carpe Articulum Literary Review, Bonny Berries. Apart from that he got his poems published in the following anthologies: The War Against War Anthology, Ed by Prince Kwasi Mensah ( Mensa Press, USA), Anthology of Canadian Stories IV, Edited by Ed Janzen(Canada), Anthology on the theme of America Ed by Vernon McVety Jr., We come from one place, an anthology edited by Prince Kwasi Mensah ( Mensa Press, USA), Savant 2010 Anthology, Ed by Rose And Alan (England) and Anthology of Science Poetry, Ed by Neil and Zara(Canada) and Poetry Anthology Ed by Dr. Ram Sharma(India).

Friday, June 24, 2011

6/24/11

Armor
By Laura Maddox


Guarded and it's your fault.
You, that guy I should've avoided from the start.

Willing and eager, I easily fell into your grasp.
I was intrigued by your thoughts,
annoyed by your immaturity,
unhinged by your remarks,
and struck by your smile.

You had swung a rope around my heart
and plummeted straight into my thoughts.
A drop of midnight ink into
the pure, placid waters of my mind.

You had fooled me, held me, used me, kissed me, upset me.
Me; naive, green and inexperienced.

Spinning words with precision
you selected each one individually, fitting them delicately into my mind.
A sparkling web I once thought to be intricate emotions
turned out to be strung with nothing more then lust and illusions.

You were amused by my thoughts,
entertained by my innocence,
pleased by my convenience,
and struck by my vulnerability.

And now I stand surrounded;
protected by a fort built upon hopes, mistakes and questions.

My thoughts are my army,
my words - my artillery,
my heart - the general.
Not only am I guarded, I'm armed.
and you're the only one strong enough to break down my wall.

I'm guarded, thanks to you;
guarded, and awaiting battle.


- - -
I'm Laura Maddox, a 19-year-old sophomore at Appalachian State University. I love to write, drink coffee, watch movies, cook, read and dream about one day living in a big city. I've never been in love but I don't let that stop me from writing love poems!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

6/23/11

Practical Goldberg (A Love Story in 3 Parts)
By Jerry Guarino


Part 3

Karen put her arms around David and kissed him. “David, I hear the birds” and she hopped out of bed and went to the window. David, still waking up, rubbed the sleepers out of his eyes. In panties and a college t-shirt, her lovely figure silhouetted in the window frame. Karen was different; she was genuinely happy with him as he was with her; no games here. It wasn’t love at first sight, but it was contentment. “Hi” as he rubbed her shoulders and kissed her on the neck. Karen squeezed his hand. “I think that’s a robin.” David looked down at the feeder. “No it’s a Stonechat, but they look the same.”

David’s days of short affairs were over. Even though he had manipulated Karen into his arms, he had found an honest and wonderful relationship. Over the next few weeks, he realized that Karen was perfect for him. It seemed like whenever he needed anything, Karen was there. She knew when he needed to work and when he needed to relax, what stressed him out and all of his interests. She understood him completely. Their lives had become complementary, like puzzle pieces fitting just so. “This must be love,” David thought. “I guess I won’t be needing the bird-feeding program anymore.

Anna was looking through Karen’s social networking program when she came in. “Hey Anna, you’ll never guess what. David and I are going to a bed and breakfast up the coast this weekend!” Anna looked up smiling. “I knew you two would hit it off. I had a feeling as soon as I started entering the data.” Karen looked over her shoulder. “So who are you looking for?” Anna replied, “It says Jeff Olsen would be a good match for me. It’s printing out his schedule, interests, love history and life goals now. I can’t believe how well this program of yours works.” Karen gave her a little hug. “Well it worked for me.”

Rube would have been proud!


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Jerry Guarino spent 57 years thinking about writing, then finally did.  His work appears in Weirdyear, Daily Love, Writing Raw, Leaning House Press and The Chaffey Review Literary Magazine.  He can be reached at jguarino@me.com or by visiting his website http://thedevilsorchestra.us
Practical Goldberg (A Love Story in 3 Parts) was selected for initial publication by The Scarlet Sound (http://thescarletsound.com/).

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

6/22/11

Practical Goldberg (A Love Story in 3 Parts)
By Jerry Guarino


Part 2

David was talking to a particularly cute young woman at his favorite franchise coffee bar. But let me digress a moment. As you know, David is that computer science major who used his engineering skills to design an automatic bird feeder that not only recognized the bird, but also provided their preferred food and kept squirrels out with a diabolical program that guaranteed a squirrel would never return. To be fair, David posted a warning in 300-point font “No squirrels allowed” with an accompanying 500 hundred-word disclaimer to avoid any lawsuits that may occur.

Not that David needed any help getting dates. He had the casual good looks of a surfer, perfect teeth and a well-proportioned six-foot frame. Although he was technically a geek, no one would have guessed; he looked more like a graduate student in literature. But being the precise, analytical person that he was, the bird feeder more or less guaranteed a subtle and inoffensive way to have a conversation with the opposite sex. Coeds would sidle up to him, looking over his shoulder to the laptop screen with pictures and sounds of blue jays, robins and nuthatches. Inevitably, they would start the conversation with a sound usually reserved when seeing puppies.

“Oh, that’s so cute. Is that a movie clip?” said the 5’9” brunette with jeans, ugh boots and crème colored sweater. David turned and smiled. “No, it’s a live feed from my place.” Well, I won’t bore you with the details, but suffice it to say that after about a half hour, the woman was convinced she had found that all too rare quality in a man, genuine innocence. David never divulged his methodology to any friends or even family; that might put an end to his understated masterpiece.

Ninety-four times out of a hundred (we saw the statistics), the woman would want to visit the apartment and see for herself, partly to confirm David’s claim that he designed and built the best bird feeder, but also to learn more about her new love interest. Since birds feed mostly at dawn and dusk, David had woman asking to spend time at his home during sunrises and sunsets, enhancing the romance. But you can’t just stand next to the feeder; birds won’t come close. No, you have to view from the second floor of his bedroom, meticulously cleaned and fresh. New age music and scented candles (unlit for the moment) completed the ambiance.

“Is that a blue jay?” said Karen. “Yes, you see most of them in April, their mating season” replied David. “Look, two more birds. What are they?” David looked closely. “Red breasted nuthatches. They travel in small groups, sometimes in pairs. See how the male preens the female while she’s eating.” As the sun disappeared over the hilltop, Karen put her arms around David and kissed him.


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Jerry Guarino spent 57 years thinking about writing, then finally did.  His work appears in Weirdyear, Daily Love, Writing Raw, Leaning House Press and The Chaffey Review Literary Magazine.  He can be reached at jguarino@me.com or by visiting his website http://thedevilsorchestra.us
Practical Goldberg (A Love Story in 3 Parts) was selected for initial publication by The Scarlet Sound (http://thescarletsound.com/).

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

6/21/11

Practical Goldberg (A Love Story in 3 Parts)
By Jerry Guarino


Part 1

David, a computer science major in college, was completing the setup of his new bird feeding system. Instead of the usual tree house, painted with bright colors, he had designed a more elegant solution. Altruism aside, he wanted to do more than just provide food for birds in the bad weather; he wanted to see the birds enjoy their treat while keeping squirrels from squandering the seeds.

So he set up a trough with three lids, mechanically operated based on a computer program. The first container had birdseeds and suet, the second fruit and nuts and the third meat scraps and insects. In front of the trough was a bar that activated a 13” LCD screen when the bird landed on it. On the screen was a picture of the three food types, corresponding to the placement of the trays. The bird would peck at the screen and a touch sensor would open the appropriate food tray. If the bird didn’t peck, a camera would snap a picture of him and open the tray that species of bird prefers. To complete the environment, video with the sounds of like birds would play from the LCD.

But what about the bane of bird feeders, squirrels? The locked trays prevented them from eating. If a squirrel pressed the landing bar, the camera would snap a picture of the offender, then play a 3D video, complete with sounds of foxes, coyotes, hawks, owls and snakes eating squirrels. The longer the squirrel stayed there, the more graphic the video progressed. Last but not least, a small spray of that predator’s scent would shoot onto the squirrel’s leg (don’t worry, it washed away in the next rain). Needless to say, most squirrels never returned to the bird feeder.

No matter where David was, he could enjoy the feeder. A second, wireless camera sent a signal to the Internet so he could watch from any computer. He even wrote an app so he could watch the action from his cell phone. Why all the work to feed birds? David discovered that this was 100% effective in meeting women, especially when showing it off at a coffee house or party. Rube would have been proud!


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Jerry Guarino spent 57 years thinking about writing, then finally did.  His work appears in Weirdyear, Daily Love, Writing Raw, Leaning House Press and The Chaffey Review Literary Magazine.  He can be reached at jguarino@me.com or by visiting his website http://thedevilsorchestra.us
Practical Goldberg (A Love Story in 3 Parts) was selected for initial publication by The Scarlet Sound (http://thescarletsound.com/).

Monday, June 20, 2011

6/20/11

Pray for The World
By Glenda Grande


This one was written as a dedication for all the disasters that kept happening earlier this year after the earthquake and tsunami in Japan:


In times of need, we whisper a silent prayer.
With our eyes closed and hearts joined,
Reach out and lift up those who have fallen.
In the darkest hours where hope seems bleak,
Do not lose hope because together, we stand.

Put aside our differences - focus here; focus now.
Remind the ones close to you the depth of your love;
Help a brother stand; hold a sister up to her feet.
Remember that we're not alone. Love makes us strong.
Even if our manmade buildings fall, our hearts stand tall.
Keep the faith alive because tomorrow is another day.

In your hearts, keep a silent prayer for the world;
As the people of the Earth, unite our hearts as one.
With determination, we'll pick up all the broken pieces
And work towards a brighter future for everyone.

Pray for the world. Pray with your hearts.
Pray for the best and pray for hope.
Pray for love. Pray for those looking for loved ones.
Pray and keep the faith alive. Pray and keep faith.


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Emotions written from the heart, this young woman writes a collection of literature by telling the tales of life with artful words. Her aim is to make people remember that being emotion-filled is only human. You can find more of her literary works on her website www.angellusion.com

Sunday, June 19, 2011

6/19/11

The Painter
By Smriti Prabhat


Adam was going to turn 24 and his sister gifted him a special appointment with Lesse, his favorite painter. He was overwhelmed as she was the best. To avoid any last minute complications, his sister had decided to get an appointment fixed for 7:30am the next day. Ms.Lesse was a much coveted painter and such an appointment with her was a commendable gift indeed, especially for a huge fan like Adam.




The next day, on his birthday, he got up really late and had to rush. He didn't want Lesse to think anything wrong about his punctuality etiquettes. Her studio was some 20 mins away from his home. He got off the cab and as he was running across he road, a speeding car- black with weird orange stripes nearly killed him. The close shave dazed him for a moment and for a second, he lost track of what was happening. Regaining his composure and straightening his tie, he walked into the studio and saw her sitting there.




Lesse was easily one of the best looking girls he had ever seen. Her lovely olive complexion, and that careless grace stunned him. He had always been a fan but the thing he now felt for her was something different.

He had been hit. That too, badly.

It wasn't any different for her either.



She painted him and such was the passion that they felt, that when she finished her work, it was 11pm. They hadn't even exchanged a word with each other the whole day and yet, the magic was working. She wrapped up the painting and gave it to him. It was love and they knew it.

They dined out together and got to know each other a little more.

He walked her to her place, took her number and hailed a cab. He kept on thinking about her all the way. He couldn't even sleep a wink that night, thinking about the wonderful time they had spent together.

Love was cliched, he sighed.



The other morning, he got up and called her up. No one picked the call. He tried a few times more but since, no one answered, he decided to drop into her studio. He wore his best suit and also took some white lilies with him- her favorite like she'd told him.

On reaching there, he found her secretary. When he inquired about her, she told him, in between sobs and sniffles that Lesse died, yesterday.



He was shocked. His throat was choked. Getting a hold on himself, he asked her how it had happened. She told him that yesterday morning, at about 7:15am, a black car with orange stripes hit her on the road in front of the studio and she died on the spot.



He couldn't believe her. He thought that some joke was being played upon him, and hence told her that he had had an appointment with her yesterday and she could check for Adam Frost in her register. She checked it in front of him, just to assure him that a certain Adam Frost certainly had an appointment but didn't turn up. They didn't even get a chance to call him since they were themselves really shocked by what all had happened.

Adam could not believe it.

He had some water. The secretary, thinking that he'd been through a bad shock, let him be alone. Thinking to himself, he thought that maybe, it was all a bad dream. Maybe he'd just overslept. He'd not met her at all and was just dreaming about it. It was pretty possible since he had been too obsessed about the meeting.

So, being a practical individual that he was, Adam dismissed the whole episode, and decided to attend Lesse's funeral.

A last attempt to ward off the fear of a joke being played, perhaps.



In the funeral, there were her friends, family and many fans like him, who were howling away to glory. But Adam was still thinking about the dinner, the careless grace and the olive complexion.



After the funeral, he went back to his place. He was very tired, sad and confused. This whole episode and left him in a daze. He decided to brew himself a coffee and settled down comfortably on his armchair. Suddenly, as he was sipping his first, his eyes fell upon a wrapped package near the fireplace. He couldn't quite place what it was.

And suddenly it all came back.

The olive complexion.

And the painting.



He was stunned and more than that, he was scared. What he'd dismissed off as a mere dream was lying in front of him- neatly wrapped up.

He opened the covering off the canvas carefully and saw the painting.

In it, he was wearing a black suit and standing upon a grave with white lilies.

And also, a note reading 'Happy Birthday'.


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I write.
A little verse
and
A little prose.
But, mostly little.
Sometimes, more.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

6/18/11

Axis
By Laura Maddox


A kiss upon the cheek
is spinning on its axis.
Another day, another night
rehearsed as if to practice.

Yes and no are white or black,
a decision turned a hue.
Are you worth less to me
or am I worth more to you?

A look into your eyes
leaves me anxious even more.
A diamond ring flees the scene
an outlined shape upon our floor.

The love of you and me
was broken by reply.
A scar upon your heart
sealed closed with a goodbye.

Impassive, we embrace
nothing like we practiced.
A kiss upon the cheek
left spinning on its axis.


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I'm Laura Maddox, a 19-year-old sophomore at Appalachian State University. I love to write, drink coffee, watch movies, cook, read and dream about one day living in a big city. I've never been in love but I don't let that stop me from writing love poems!

Friday, June 17, 2011

6/17/11

Kiss Goodbye
By Glenda Grande


Give me your kiss of death and kill me softly
Beneath the starry moonlight; goodnight
Sweet dreams and forever goodbye my dear.
Maybe tomorrow will be a brand new world;
Let’s make a promise to meet there once more.

Your hand is slipping away – I can’t hold on.
You’re drifting away from me; slowly but surely
The tides between us beautiful yet melancholic;
Thank you for the time you loved me. I loved you.

I’ll whisper your name once more within the night;
Please remember my voice; the feel of my touch
Even if we’ll just become another bittersweet memory;
Once upon a time, like a fairytale of two lovers
I’ll wave goodbye to you, my prince of serendipity
Maybe we’ll meet once again; hold me once again.

One last kiss to end what we have and to start anew;
Farewell. Goodnight. Sweet dreams and a goodbye.


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Emotions written from the heart, this young woman writes a collection of literature by telling the tales of life with artful words. Her aim is to make people remember that being emotion-filled is only human. You can find more of her literary works on her website www.angellusion.com

Thursday, June 16, 2011

6/16/11

Lovey-Dovey
By Vivekanand Jha


Till in the nostril air

My heart would keep on beating

With your heart in unison

Till the time we both hyperventilate

In resonance and fall as sleep

Out of exhaust and tiredness.



Till in me energy and vigour

I would keep on striking

And raining into you

Like the spring from the mountain

On the surface of the earth.



Till in the eyes tears

I would keep on shedding

In your loving and repining memory

As leaves shed milky tears

When they are subjected to

Injury and separation

By persistent division,

Cut, break or scratch.



Till on your cheeks and lips,

Rose is smeared

My lips and nose would keep on

Hovering and humming

Like a bee for honey.



Till in the eyes, images appear

I would keep on listening

The music and magic of your eyes

Like a snake to the charmer.


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Vivekanand Jha is a poet and research scholar from Darbhanga, Bihar, India. He is Diploma in Electronics, Certificate in Computer Hardware and Networking, MA in English, and is also doing Ph. D on the poetry of the noted Indian English poet Jayanta Mahapatra from Lalit Narayan Mithila University Darbhanga. He is son of noted professor, poet and award winning translator Dr. Rajanand Jha (Crowned with Sahitya Akademi Award, New Delhi). He is the author of four books of poetry: Hands heave to harm and hamper, Spam: A Satire on E-Sex, Songs of Innocence and Adolescence, My Poems Falter and Fall and Time Moves Clockwise Only. His works have been widely published in the magazine round the world like Pagan Imagination, P & W (Poetry and Writing), Danse Macabre, Vox Poetica, Writing Raw, Whisper publication, Tribal Soul Kitchen, Winamop, Literature India, Mother Bird, Retort Magazine, Holy Rose Review(HRR), Munyori Poetry Journal, Flutter Literary Journal, Taylor: Prose & Poetry, The Fullosia Press, Eclectica Magazine, Write Between the Lines, The Adirondack Review, Eudaimonia Poetry Review, Nagaland Post, World Audience Publishers, The Morung Express, Fresh Literary Magazine, Maverick Magazine, Cliterature, Spoken War, Inclement Poetry Magazine, World Salad Poetry Magazine, South Jersey Underground, Mississippi Crow Magazine, Pink Mouse, Censored Poets, Reflections, Future Earth Magazine, Pandora’s Imagination, Pennsylvania Literary Journal, CANTARAVILLE Quarterly Magazine, Locust Magazine, Carpe Articulum Literary Review, Bonny Berries. Apart from that he got his poems published in the following anthologies: The War Against War Anthology, Ed by Prince Kwasi Mensah ( Mensa Press, USA), Anthology of Canadian Stories IV, Edited by Ed Janzen(Canada), Anthology on the theme of America Ed by Vernon McVety Jr., We come from one place, an anthology edited by Prince Kwasi Mensah ( Mensa Press, USA), Savant 2010 Anthology, Ed by Rose And Alan (England) and Anthology of Science Poetry, Ed by Neil and Zara(Canada) and Poetry Anthology Ed by Dr. Ram Sharma(India).

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

6/15/11

I Need You
By Steven Barnes


I Need You

A sun that doesn’t shine

Grass that doesn’t grow

Wishes that never come true



Life sucks without you



I pace the floor

I keep checking my messages

I shed countless tears



When the number one pops up in my inbox

This heart skips a beat

When I see your name I smile

I read your message twice so I stay happy



You let me soar like a bird

You make me carefree as a child

Happy as a hippie



You’re the water in my rivers

You’re the grass that makes my world beautiful

You’re the peace my soul needs



I have to see you

Whether that means walking around the world

Teaching pigs to fly

Making a politician honest

I will see you



Like a girl needs flowers

Like a human needs oxygen

Like a man needs his sports team

Like a child needs his parent

I need you



You’re the reason I smile

You’re the reason I blush

You’re the reason I love



I love you

You are my soul

My reason for existence

Without you I don’t want to live



I can’t live

I have no emotion without you

I’m just a soulless golem



Please stay with me

I’ve never felt this way before

I want this feeling to stay

I want you to stay



I don’t want anyone else



If someone offered glorious times with someone else

Happy times with someone else

Parties with someone else

Times that I would never forget with someone else

And you were living with the serpent

I’d deal with the tough times with you in a heart beat



Because I love you more than a man will ever love a woman

And if I you ever left me I would slowly rot and die



I

Need

You


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My name is Steven Barnes, I'm 18 and live in Kentucky with my Grandma and Brother.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

6/14/11

A Walk to the Moon with You
By Khurshid Alam




Come, oh my darling on a walk
to the moon where we’ll live for life
and will never return from.

Away from jealousies, away from competition
We will live there carefree
We won’t fell trees for a house
We won’t breathe toxin there
We will have a sliver of moon daily
In breakfast and swing in the air
You will pass the days in shining back
To the people on earth below
And then people will tell the stories
The moon now has been shining brighter than before.


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Monday, June 13, 2011

6/13/11

What I'll Forget to Mention
By Danean


When I speak of my first kiss

I’ll mention all the stars

How brightly they shone as if it were day

The dim lamplight flushing my reddening cheeks

As I slurred my thoughts

Spoke careless whispers in an unknown language

And justified my personal sins.

I’ll tell how the wine hung loosely on my lips

How the love dripped from my tongue

Permeated my skin and clung to my fingertips

Aching for one more soft touch

From a Verona bred boy whose name I shall not forget

As he spoke to me softly on that lurid night

On the cobblestone steps of San Martino

A world away from me now.

When I speak of my first kiss

I will not mention the chill on my skin

The angst in my soul

For I wished it had been you

To take me on those steps

To hold me close and tousle my hair

To love me like I’d always hoped you would.

But when I speak of my first kiss

I’ll mention all the stars

I’ll forget to say that I hoped you thought of me

And prayed that you wished to be Romeo as well.


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I am a secretly passionate person... until you mention Italy (or anything European for that matter). I've spent my life writing alone in the dark, and recently began publishing my opinions and prose online. I find that words come to me much more eloquently in writing than in speech, so I leave the loud, vocally unappealing arguments to the politicians and the idiots, and save my thoughts for the page.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

6/12/11

Papier
By Glenda Grande


Paper planes roam the sky as origami flowers litter the garden beds in a world of paper. The simple pleasures that we slowly forget and take for granted still hold their magic in this place – like a child’s mind filled with imagination, always seeing more than what meets the naked eye.

Sitting upon the paper-shredded like grass, slightly rough and dry to the touch, a young boy sits and folds himself a little boat from his candy wrapper. He does so with a smile on his face, only learning how to create the little water-floater the previous day from his beloved grandfather. It was the way boys used to play in his day, he said to the young child, for back then there were no fancy electronic toys to occupy their time.

After completing the final touches, the boy jumped up and rushed to the nearby fountain to test out his creation. Slowly, he gently placed the paper boat onto the water and kneeled beside the fountain, watching it float as he created an adventure inside his mind.

To be a pirate or an explorer – ideas which sparkled like treasure in his heart filled him with a curious wonder. What if we could, like paper, manipulate the folds of events in our life to create something? From his little candy wrapper, he was able to create a boat, but he started to think about the other possible shapes he could make.

As we grow older, sometimes we forget and neglect that child inside of us, pushing aside the curious wonder which once filled our hearts as each day brought upon a new adventure. We become so concerned and engrossed in the idea of getting by that we overlook the simple, happy pleasures in life.

Aren’t we all, more or less, like a child with a piece of paper? We hold our lives in our hands but often don’t realize we have the power. That paper, much like our life, can be turned into anything we desire – a rose, a heart with a flower or a plane to soar through dreams. We can write words upon it, draw a picture or colour it in.

Our life is like a piece of paper – make what you will of it.


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Emotions written from the heart, this young woman writes a collection of literature by telling the tales of life with artful words. Her aim is to make people remember that being emotion-filled is only human. You can find more of her literary works on her website www.angellusion.com

Saturday, June 11, 2011

6/11/11

Black and White
By LaVa Payne


A low bass strummed. Thum-thum-thum-thum. It was a heartbeat low, slow and half-beaten down.

Piano keys tinkled in the background, and the slow heartbreaking moan of the string violins ached with their mellow quartet.

Her swooping gown bounced and shifted, bounced and shifted. In black and white, there she was. Breathtaking poise held her to the edge of the piano. The keys of the piano matched her gown and band.

Captivating, she held the audience with a lover’s embrace. The man next to me had put his drink down on the table. The cigar smoke curled around his head and danced off the edges of his fedora.

I could feel the music soaking into me like a hot shower ushering me into some place of quiet. I listened with my whole body. The velvet voice stroked me. I felt my shoulders relax as I laid my hands on the tablecloth. The candle light flickered from the red, oval with black mesh slung over it. I slipped a twenty on the rim of the tablecloth where she could see it. My votive suggestion was accessible.

I waited.

She had been watching me and now I was going to meet her in black and white.

A lonely saxophone cried in protest breaking free of the low bass still beating in synchronicity. I felt the passion rise from deep below as she bellowed, “…you’re mine.”

The purple and blue lighting behind her faded with oceans of waves upon the shore. I could feel a swell pushing forward and out as the ocean of her presence welled up behind her sultry curves.

I took a cigarette out of the package. Camels short. I tapped the cigarette twice end first on the package. I was not going to make it easy on her. She was going to have to work it for me.

I turned sideways to look nowhere. It didn’t matter. I was letting her know I had time--time to burn if necessary.

Out of the corner of my eye, I watched her place the microphone into the stand with the long black cord dangling along beside her dress. She eased herself smoothing the imaginary hair from her face. But it was the saunter I wanted to watch. Curving ever so slightly against the gown, Blue’s silken skin was ever so soft and alabaster. It was like candy for my desire watching her move. I wanted her. I was crazy hungry all over.

The pack of matches in my pocket danced in my palm. There was something else touching the matches in my pocket, but that would wait. I held it up letting it dance around my fingers looking at it with no apparent marvel. I knew the trick.

Blue was standing next to me. I could hear her faint panting and sense her excitement. I struck the match against the matchbook. I held the match with one hand examining the flame before I inhaled the fire of her and everything that she was into me. The fever and pleasure of her intoxicated my drink. Blue was liquor for the soul. Not many of them are around now.

The smoke funneled around the table. The silence was creeping around the room. No one mattered. Blue was standing poised and quiet with her hand outstretched for my cigarette. I obliged her.

“Daddy, what business do you have here tonight?” The small mole on her cheek stood out under the dim light as the smoke curled around her face towards the hung ceiling.

I paused taking the cigarette from her. “I was looking for a nice girl you see. But I don’t see any nice girls here.” I waited for her to show a ripple of irritation. I liked seeing her let me get to her that way.

“Hmmph. Aceray, you need to forget that fancy dream.” Blue took a glance over her shoulder. The band was taking a break, and she had all the time she needed. “I got all this, and I am not going to give that up to play wifey to somebody that will be here when eight o’clock strikes every night.” Her curves were intoxicating as she put her hand on her hip. I noticed the soft swaying from her hips.

“This life won’t last,” I waited to see the grim look on her face, “People lose interest and move to other joints, you see.” I let the smoke curl out of my mouth waiting for her to tilt her head and think of something clever to say.

“It don’t have to last for long Baby because I am going to be famous.” Blue pointed to the three men at the end of the bar. “I am going to get my own record contract and make it big in New York, forget this scene.” Her cherry lips were pouting ever so slight.

I slid my hand down into my pocket and grabbed the box. It had a slight soft feel like I imagined her gown would feel like if I stroked it. “Be my woman,” I slipped the box on the table, “be mine forever.”

Blue tilted her head back and let out a childish laugh. “Never. I refuse to give up my dreams to marry you Aceray. You would soon forget you married me and be back out here somewhere looking for another me to make you forget the wife at home.” Blue was eyeing the box. The black velvet was stark against the white tablecloth.

I crushed the cigarette out. “Tough luck doll,” I pushed my chair back. My coat was hanging on the back of the chair. “We could have been great together you see.” I turned my back to her striding to the door.

“Wait!” her voice trailed behind me.

I knew that someday she would change her mind. It was too late. I left the black on white. She would take the twenty and leave the box.


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LaVa currently resides in the Piney Woods and writes stories. Among her various hobbies are: searching the remains of WPA projects from the industrial age and combing old saw mill towns for archeological relics.

Friday, June 10, 2011

6/10/11

AMORE
By Laura Maddox


Young love -
petal pink lips in a crescent moon grin.
A ray of sweet sunshine swirling through the blinds.
Rain drops on a summer afternoon,
cool against blazing amber skin.
A sly smile in a flooded room.
Coins tossed into a fountain.
A hand to hold
and someone to fight with.

amore.
love.
amour.

Commitment -
Snuggling in a blanket while awaiting snowfall.
Coffee at a sip-able temperature.
A worn in set of sheets.
Two bookends that hold life together.

Yet an unrequited love -
an envelope wandering in the mail
tossed upon a sea of letters.
A locked door
without a key.

Ti amo.
I love you.
Je t'aime.

Undiscovered love -
a package waiting to be opened.
driving with the windows down
to a little known destination.

Love - one of life's purest mysteries.
Love.


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I'm Laura Maddox, a 19-year-old sophomore at Appalachian State University. I love to write, drink coffee, watch movies, cook, read and dream about one day living in a big city. I've never been in love but I don't let that stop me from writing love poems!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

6/9/11

Wordless Conversation
By Glenda Grande


I’ll whisper your name in the midst of the night;
I can make your heart race and your body shiver.
I bet you never knew that this could feel so right.
With your hands on my hips, I’ll kiss your lips
Because tonight, there’s no such thing as goodbye.

You and I, together we can speak without words,
Let our bodies do all the talking – sweetly and softly;
Wanting to make sure my message is clearly heard,
I’ll hold you until you understand my heart is yours.

Whisper my name when then sun rises to a new day;
Calm my soul and warm me up with your love.
This sonnet that belongs to you and I is everlasting.
With my hand through your hair, give me the kiss of life
Because today is another page to add to our story.


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Emotions written from the heart, this young woman writes a collection of literature by telling the tales of life with artful words. Her aim is to make people remember that being emotion-filled is only human. You can find more of her literary works on her website www.angellusion.com

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

6/8/11

Skipping Stones
by Brian Biswas


The rains of the previous week had ceased. For seven days and seven nights--a relentless fury. It was mid-afternoon. Big, black birds slowly circled in the tarantula sky. The slow-moving creek that ran by their house had swelled to several times its normal size and she watched in morbid fascination as the frenzied waters rushed by. She picked up a stone--a flat white stone, the kind good for skipping--and slung it into the water, but the current was too swift and it refused to hop.

”Laura.”

She turned. She saw her father at the top of the hill. He was dressed in his favorite white suit with the tan fedora. His eyes somber. A scowl upon his face.

”Yes, Dad?”

”Are you coming?”

”In a minute.”

She turned back to face the water. She had no desire to return to the house. She knew what her father wanted and she could not acquiesce. Not now. There was a stick lying several feet from her and she picked it up and tossed it into the brackish water. It swung about, buffeted by the current, then disappeared around a bend in the creek. She climbed up onto the granite rock that overlooked the creek like a vulture. It was the place she always came to when she needed to get away. The rock was shaped like an hourglass with a hollowed out section in the middle in which she would sit and look out over the creek like a captain surveying the open sea. When she had first come upon the rock she thought that perhaps it had been sculpted by an artist from long ago. It certainly seemed out-of-place on a bank covered with thousands of skipping stones. She even asked her mother about it once, but she merely shrugged and told her not to worry about such things.

She remembered her mother, her long, wavy hair, her amber eyes. That gentle way she had of speaking. She had never known a more gracious person, nor one filled with such self-confidence. Her mother had an advanced degree in chemistry, but had never sought employment in the field. She married John while in college and Laura was born a year later. She would stay home with the child. Her career could wait. The child could not. She sacrificed everything for her family. And yet had Laura ever really appreciated her?

She lay on her back and looked up into the discolored sky, so narrow and dense. She closed her eyes and her thoughts melted away.

When she awoke, the sun was low in the sky. She frowned. It must have been nearly five o’clock and they would all be gone. Her father would be furious, of course. She hopped down off the rock and brushed off her clothes. Then she picked up another stone and tossed it into the creek. Ker-plunk it went as it fell into the water with a splash, concentric rings flowing out from the point of impact. Ker-plunk, ker-plunk, ker-plunk.

She trudged up the winding path that led to the house. The path was muddy from the recent rains and by the time she reached the house her shoes were caked with red mud. She took them off and went inside, walked trembling down the long hallway that led to her father’s study. The study door was open and she went inside, saw the green armchair and the majestic oak desk that her father said she would inherit when he died.

She would apologize for not coming to the house when Catherine was there. She had been sleeping (or dreaming) down by the creek and had lost track of time. It would not happen again. But when the green chair pivoted and she saw the stern face of her father, she shut up like a clam. He picked up a cigarette and puffed at it. He wanted her to begin but she was silent. A fly buzzed near him and he swatted it away.

He asked why she had not come before and she tried to apologize. He told her she had been rude. He was right, she said, and as she looked at the wooden floor she felt his eyes staring fixedly upon her. He wanted to know why she would not accept Catherine--didn’t she realize she was hurting him? His voice was filled with reproach. It was all too much for her to take and she burst into tears.

He told her to leave; he did not want to look at her. She left the study and went to her bedroom. Her cheeks were bathed in tears. She went to the closet and picked out her favorite dress, the bright yellow one with ruffled sleeves, and a dark-blue sweater with white buttons down the front and she returned to the creek where she could be alone. Her right hand was trembling and she tried to control it, but it would not be still.

Dusk was approaching and a yellow fog was settling over the creek. The speed of the current had not abated. If anything the water flowed faster now and the water level was higher. She reached down and touched the water. It was icy cold. She shivered and pulled back her hand. She picked up a flat rock, white and very smooth. She flicked it into the water, throwing it with the current. It hit the water at just the right angle and skipped twice before disappearing into the depths.

She thought about the last time she had seen her mother. At the funeral. Her mother was wearing a red dress. A pearl necklace Laura had given her on her thirty-eighth birthday around her neck. She had never looked more beautiful, Laura thought. Laying in her coffin. Uncle Bob came over and put his arm around her. He told her about the time her mother had brought her home from the hospital. A pretty girl with serious blue eyes. A warm smile. That is how he described her. He had never seen his sister look so happy, he said. Nor John so proud. Everyone, it seemed, was crying. One of the happiest days of their lives.

Laura smiled.

Yes, Laura, he said to her softly, you must never forget. Promise me you will never forget.

Uncle Bob moved away on the arms of Aunt Ruth and two of her cousins came over. Jenny with her freshly-scrubbed cheeks and her iridescent eyes. Steve with his fine, dark hair and his elegant hands. Steve who three years later was to die--like her mother--in a freak car accident. Oh, Lord. Why did her mother have to go out that night? Why did she take that route to the grocery store? Why did she swerve to avoid whatever it was she felt she had to avoid? Why did she do exactly what she did? Only questions, of course. There were always only questions.

Her fondest memories. She remembered how her mother used to bake bread on Sunday afternoons. She would climb atop the counter and watch as her mother kneaded the dough and rolled it out into loaves and put the loaves into pans. While the bread rose, they would tell riddles and play word games and she would reveal her dreams and then her mother would tell her about her own childhood. She was always asking questions, her mother said. Lord, she had never heard so many questions. She saw her mother before her now. Her bright face. Her pretty figure. Her smile that had always filled her with warmth. She was so smart, so elegant. Nothing would ever stop her, she had thought. Nothing.

Her mother was speaking:

”I’ll never forget the day, Laura, when I was walking across the tobacco fields, minding my own business. It was the month of July, the air hot and sticky. I saw the cows and the chickens, the happy pigs rolling in red mud, and I saw that wretched farmer. He was the meanest man I had ever met, his eyes dark and filled with rage. He saw me and he hollered. I was wearing my red dress with the ruffles on the sleeves. A yellow sunbonnet. That man never liked me. He thought I was out to steal his hens. And so I did once. Just to spite him. He found out it was me and he talked to my parents and I had to apologize the next day and I wasn’t let out of the house for a week. And you won’t believe it, Laura, but I talked to the farmer’s wife several weeks later. She was a charming woman, intelligent, worldly--not what I’d imagined her to be, not at all. She told me her husband had always admired me. A spunky girl, he said. And her husband was a good man. With a kind heart and as honest as anyone she had ever known. If he appeared bitter (she seemed to be able to read my mind) it was only because he saw in me what he would never have. She did not elaborate, but I knew what she meant. And it was then I realized that people are often not what you take them to be. Are often quite different.” She smiled and looked off into the distance. Remembering.

Laura recalled the time her father had introduced her to Catherine. It had been over a year ago, yet it seemed as if it was yesterday. Hello, Laura, pleased to meet you. John has told me so much about you. Why, just now he was saying how proud he is... And her voice trailed off into oblivion for Laura would not listen to another word. How many times had they gone out together before she moved in with them? Half-a-dozen, perhaps. No more. And what had been her impression? She was a kind woman, certainly. A sympathetic woman. A gentle usurper. She had wanted to talk to her father about her feelings but she never found the courage to do so. And he...what had he wanted? He never confided in her. She did not know what he felt--could only imagine. He missed his wife, certainly, he had never been the same since she died...but...but what? That he wanted Laura to forget? That he wanted her to be happy? Didn’t he know that she would never forget, that she would never be happy? That she was drowning in unhappiness?

She looked into the mauve twilight so steady and peaceful. A cool wind was blowing and the pine trees looked like matchsticks as they gently swayed. Her concentration was broken by the cries of a flock of birds overhead. She looked up into the opalescent light of dusk and she saw them there and she could not help herself but she began to cry once again. She felt as if she was floating in a sea of dark jelly. Surrounded by the waters of loneliness, there were no longer any stars to guide her.



Laura. Laura.

Yes, father?

Are you coming?

No, Father, I will never come.



She had nothing against Catherine, really. (Catherine with her long brown hair and her hazel eyes and her perfect manners.) And she wanted her father to be happy of course. (Her father. What was there that she could say to him? Without hurting herself. Without hurting them all.) But... But what? Was it that Catherine was not her mother? That she was not her? That is what they all thought, of course. But of course that was not it, that would never be it. Yet how could she put it into words? That which could not be explained, could only be felt. It was simply the way things stood that no matter how much she might have wished otherwise, there was nothing she could do or say that would satisfy them. And it would never change.

The art of stone skipping had no beginning and no end. Dapping, skiffing, ricochet. Ducks and drakes. Every language had its own word, but the physics was the same the world over. What did it mean to skip stones? You took a stone, a flat stone, about the size of your palm, smooth of course and oval, and you slung it into the water. If released at precisely the right angle, fast and with plenty of downward force, it ricocheted off the water, sweeping out a long parabolic arc. Several times, if you possessed enough skill. Or if you were lucky. Defying gravity. She’d done a six-skip once. Of that she’d been quite proud. But usually it was only two or three. She wasn’t very good at skipping stones.

She loved this time of day when everything was changing. She closed her eyes and she saw not the blackness of the night which was fast approaching but the whiteness of infinity. It was like a winter snowstorm. She saw the ghost of her mother in the distance and she called to her but her voice was drowned out by the sound of Catherine laughing. A cold, cruel laugh sharp as hail. She clung to the granite rock as if it were a lifeline. Everything, it seemed, was dissolving.

She thought about what there would be if she could choose what there would be. There would be no girlfriend, no Catherine, no love affair. There would be nothing, nothing.

”If you were to ask me, Father, I’d say she’s very much in love with you,” she said, her voice a mere whisper. ”You’re both very much in love.”

She slipped into the raging water, like a swan.


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Brian Biswas has been published in the United States as well as internationally.
His most recent publications are in Cafe Irreal, Skive, and Weirdyear and he has work forthcoming in Bewildering Stories. He lives in Chapel Hill, North Carolina.
You can read more of his work at: http://www.brianbiswas.com

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

6/7/11

R&S - 09/30/02
By Richard Cody


13 years ago, give or take a day or two,
I gazed into the sky of your eyes
And wished aloud as lovers do:

“I want to be yours,
I want you to be mine.”

I can only hope the years between then and now
Have proved these words no idle line.

My blood,
My breath,
My spirit now and after death
Are yours to do with as you will.

Sarah, my heart, I want to be yours
And I want you to be mine still.


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Richard Cody writes what he sees somewhere in Northern California. His poetry and fiction, even a drawing or two, have appeared in many print and virtual publications, most recently Red Fez, Eclectic Flash and a handful of stones. Look for his books, The Jewel in The Moment, Darker Corners, and This is Not My Heart at Lulu and Amazon. And from the author himself if you can find him.

Monday, June 6, 2011

6/6/11

Angela and Joe
By Chris Dean


Radiant gold hair drapes about her shoulders in strawberry soft tendrils. Her eyes won’t tell you what she’s thinking and you won’t care anyway, you only want to watch those pure green fairies dance beneath their thick canopy of lash. She has a trillion smiles, each one unique. None for you though, unless you’re nice to cats and children, and to her friends.

The flat above the garlic-scented pizza store is hers by squatting privilege. Robert, a man who was silly enough to leave Boston, left her one day on the couch in tears. It’s been years and years and now he wants back. Poor Robert.

Outside on cobbled red Bradbury Street there is always something going on. She loved the mimes that stroll over from the park when the bistro erupts with happy brunchers on Sunday afternoons. They’re funny people, those mimes, and sometimes she even dreams in mime. Long black limbs surrounding those squiggly faces. Human pretzels, that’s what mimes are.

If she buys a dollar sweet roll from the wonderful old woman who sticks flowers in her hats, then Angela always wants two. There is a rule about that. But that second cinnamony delight rarely makes it all the way back to the apartment. There is a lonely aqua container sitting at the end of the kitchen counter that has never met a cinnamon roll.

Often, Angela carries a sketchbook in her braided red bag. She captures interesting buildings on the blank white pages. Or tiny things, like flapping flags that catch her eye. But she cannot draw a pigeon or a person’s face. Only buildings with windows, and people behind the windows with strange shadow faces.

She enjoys walking for hours to unfamiliar places. She meets new people that way. There are millions of faces in the city, and she cannot draw even one of them. She likes meeting them though.

One of her good friends is Joe. A very angry, bitter old man, some might say. He caught her looking at his neighbor’s house one day and yelled at her from his living room window. Straightening her coiffure, she’d set foot on Joe’s property and begun talking about things that had nothing at all to do with the situation. “I live just off Market, in the district. I walk a lot. I wear out my shoes I walk so much.”

The old man inside the yellow house had exploded, “Get off my lawn! Go back to where you live, then.”

Toeing the dry clods, she had teased, “It’s not doing so well, is it?”

“Get off!”

Sighing, she’d strolled forward, swinging arms. The orange blouse’s fringe fluttering in the breeze. Her smile was a magnificent one, as if she were going to a birthday party.

“What the hell are you doing?”

“I am off your lawn, as you requested, sir.” She was now on the porch.

“Get off my property before I call the police. You know what I meant. Now get out of here.”

She’d liked him from the start. That very first day with Joe spitting his venom at her, Angela had liked him anyway. It would always be a quandary. She’d sat down, ignoring what the dirty, splintered steps might do to her jeans. “There are many interesting houses around here. It is rustic. I think I would like to draw the neighborhood. Omitting your house, of course.” She rummaged through her bag and retrieved the sketchbook and charcoal.

“Are you crazy? I said go.” Now the old man’s voice was surly, not mean. “Why not mine? Why not my house?”

“You seem shy. I thought you’d prefer it that way.”

“No. And I am not shy. I just want to be left alone. Now go.”

Swiveling her head back, she’d caught first sight of him. An old man in a wheelchair hiding behind diaphanous blue curtains. He had coal black eyes and a slobber shone over the speckled, bent chin. The warped hands looked like old roots left on his lap by mistake. His black eyes gleamed resentfully at the intrusion. She turned away in an instant and remarked, “It stinks in there from cigars. Don’t invite me in. I’m am very allergic to malodorous places.”

“What? Invite you-? You are crazy. Now get out of here.”

“You have been waiting for someone to snap at. And my legs are tired. I’ll sit here a bit and you can growl and snap, and then I’ll be on my way, if you don’t mind.”

“I do mind.”

“Of course you mind. That’s the point of being an old grump, now isn’t it?”

She was halfway through the pointy, tangerine house across the street when he finally answered, “I won’t really call the police but you have to leave. I don’t like people up here. Especially crazy people like you. You should leave.”

“My name is Angela.”

“I did not ask to know your name. What are you doing here anyway?”

“Drawing.”

“I can see that!”

For the next few minutes the only sounds were her charcoal pencil scratching over the coarse paper and his wheezing. The wheels of the chair squeaked. She finished roughing out three houses before he bothered her again. “How long are you going to be here? This isn’t an artist’s colony for insane painters.”

“I’m sketching, silly. I cannot paint.”

“You need to do it elsewhere. Whatever it is.” The chair’s wheels thunked on the wall inside. “Let me see,” he demanded in an awful voice.

“Do you like it so far?” She held up the unwieldy pad.

After a few moments he said, “Yes. It’s fine. You probably do it all the time. That’s why you’re good.”

“Thank you.”

“That wasn’t a compliment.”

She went back to her sketching. “You may have it when I’m finished.”

“What would I do with it?”

“I don’t know.”

“You can leave it. I’ll look at it I suppose.”

Angela spent two hours with Joe that afternoon. He complained about the annoyance of having someone like her around, but said that she could come back. She has been back dozens of times. He tolerates her ridiculous strawberry cookies and she sips his salty lemonade, while she sits out there just like that first day. Sometimes he tells her what it was like building the first bridges in the Florida Keys. Occasionally, she complains about work at the museum and about life, which brings out his grumpiness. They are good friends, close friends, but he would snap at her like a dog if she ever dared say it aloud.


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Chris Dean is an invenerate misanthrope.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

6/5/11

Unspoken Affair
By Laura Maddox


Do we sleep in opposing directions
due to comfort
or to avoid the suspicious stares bound to come
from our heavy lidded eyes?

Our bodies are magnets.
They push against the thick waves of tension
that crash between us and
send us darkly into contrasting directions.

If only we could erase it all - you'd flip over
and draw me in with unparalleled force.

I can hear your heart's rapid pulse
as your mind ebbs and flows with thoughts that are
sure to throw my senses into
an area flagged by neon caution tape.

Your breathing is slow and practiced -
forcefully rhythmic.
Do you really believe me to be that naive?
Naive of us?

I know you.
Your heartaches, your secrets, your laugh.

Our backs are only inches apart.
Though it feels like
miles and
miles.

Do we sleep in opposing directions due to comfort?
Or because we're both too scared to admit
the lie we both know to be true?

Miles
and miles.


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I'm Laura Maddox, a 19-year-old sophomore at Appalachian State University. I love to write, drink coffee, watch movies, cook, read and dream about one day living in a big city. I've never been in love but I don't let that stop me from writing love poems!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

6/4/11

The Secret
By Tulika Verma


Snehal walked on the sand- barefoot, lost- neither happy, nor sad, just peaceful. Full of sea smell and the taste of humid breeze. She sat on a stone, gazing at the horizon, at the sun that was setting away from her day to rise into his. She felt connected. To him, to the sun, to the unfathomable sea, to the changing sky, to the birds that returned home in flocks, to the empty shell under her toe. She looked up at the lighthouse and noticed two lovers watching the sunset from above, silhouetted in orange, dusky red, and then grey, as if morphing into souvenirs. Souvenirs of the beautiful moments that had slowly, stealthily grown into memories. And now, they were her most treasured belongings- the hysterical laughters, the unembarassed tears, the crazy stories, the fast music, the long drives; life, in hindsight, looked like a fast forwarded reel. Only at some points, it stoppped. Like the day they spent building castles of sand. Like the game during which they exchanged dolls as a promise to be together forever. Like the day he picked up a fight with the bully of the colony for her sake. Like the evening she spent waiting for him in the park, full of anticipation, anxiety, hoping he would come (though she hadn't called him and he didn't come). Like the night of college fest that they danced away. Like that night on the beach when they came close, when friendship crept away from between them like sand from a tight fist, only to make way for something else. Bigger or better was for fate to decide. She smiled at the moon. It smiled back, a mischievous smile, as if it held a secret it wouldn't disclose. She understood. She had secrets too. In her heart and in her womb. She inhaled the scent of wet sand and closed her eyes, trying to listen to the second heartbeat. She wondered if it smelt what she smelt, felt what she felt, if it was aware of the strange pangs of love that she felt for it, love that choked her, engulfed her, transformed her. She did not know the answer. But she was content with the not knowing. She felt complete. She got up to leave. Tomorrow he would be made party to yet another secret of hers. Rest was for fate to decide.


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Tulika Verma is a 22 year old Software Engineer from India who lives and believes in love stories, and pursues her passion in her free time. She dreams of one day reaching and touching millions of lives through her words and her spirit of social work.

Friday, June 3, 2011

6/3/11

Bittersweet Haiku
By Wendy L. Schmidt


Unspoken passion,
Embrace the tender torment,
Bittersweet madness.


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Wendy Schmidt is a Wisconsin native who has written short stories and poems for the last 10 years. She enjoys gardening, movies and working on her 80 year old house. Winter survival gear includes a computer, writing desk and large lattes.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

6/2/11

Earhart’s Car
By Lori Van Pelt


Lillie Porter rode to Denver with Carla Mills. Carla, a recently-divorced history professor, invited her to attend the weekend gathering of historians and academics presenting papers on the history of regional highways.
Optional activities included a Saturday afternoon excursion to the Forney Museum of Transportation. Lillie jumped at the chance to go. She loved old cars and the stories that went with them.
The museum’s collection included several early-day Model T’s, a number of Reos from the 1930s, and even a 1970s Cadillac that once belonged to Elvis Presley, according to a museum volunteer named Roger. Roger said, “Elvis gave that car to a local radio disc jockey. He said that the engine quit and the car stopped smack in the middle of I-25 on the day Elvis died. And I believe it, don’t you?”
Lillie and Carla nodded in somber agreement. Lillie turned toward another car. Roger smiled. “Anything else I can help you ladies with?” Lillie started to say she’d just browse, thanks, but Carla spun on her heel, making her black calf-length skirt swirl around her legs and showing off her spike-heeled leather boots. “Yes, please,” she said, tilting her head toward Roger. Her long blonde hair bounced against her shoulders. She tugged at her chartreuse jacket. Only a woman like Carla could look attractive in that color. “I’d never heard of Reos before,” Carla said. “Did any of these cars actually travel on the Lincoln Highway?”
Lillie watched as her petite size-eight friend beckoned to the six-foot-tall volunteer, who followed willingly, like most men Carla flirted with. Men noticed Carla, and she used that to her advantage.
“Are you joining us?” Roger turned back to Lillie.
“I will in a minute,” she replied. “May I look at some of these cars first?” She motioned to a group of vehicles lining the wall. The vintage automobiles were displayed with a variety of mannequins dressed in period costumes.
“Sure. Those are mostly from the 1930s, too. We’ll come back around that way.”
Lillie wasn’t going to hold her breath on that one. Once Carla worked her charms on most men, they stuck to her like the double-stick tape Lillie saw holding a faux-chauffeur’s cap to his head. Likely as not, Lillie would view the rest of the museum’s collection on her own. She reached over, tugged gently on the mannequin’s cap, pulled the material down low enough to hide the tape, and patted the hat back into place. She stepped back, almost believing the chauffeur was a real person who could open the door of the blue car, a 1924 blue hardtop Kissel with a running board and carriage back and an oval window in the rear. Kissels, according to the placard providing these important tidbits, were rare.
The car Lillie liked best belonged to Amelia Earhart. The canary-colored Kissel, dubbed “The Yellow Peril” by Earhart, according to the museum’s sign, sparked Lillie’s imagination. Lillie was not a pilot. But years ago, she read the famous aviatrix’s book, Last Flight. Lillie knew that Earhart was lost in the Pacific in 1937 while trying to fly around the world. She later discovered that Earhart loved to drive and had learned that skill when grounded by a sinus infection. In the 1920s, she took her mother along in this very car to tour all the national parks. Just thinking about that trip whetted Lillie’s appetite for adventure. Maybe she could drive cross-country herself one day. All the better if she could tour the nation in an antique automobile like this one.
As a teenager, Lillie longed to be a pilot. A good friend of hers, a girl who was good in science and math, took ground school at night. Lillie thought she could do that, too, but her father, who served as an airplane mechanic during World War II, told her pilots must have 20/20 vision, uncorrected. Lillie wore contact lenses. She never questioned his statement. She gave up her dreams of flight, concentrating instead on music and literature. She didn’t find out until many years later that pilots could indeed have corrective lenses. By that time, her father was already dead. She was angry at first, but then she remembered something else he told her, and she knew the truth of why he didn’t want her to become a pilot. He didn’t want to chance losing her in an airplane he could not have worked on and ridden in himself first. They had to do that during the war, he explained once. The mechanics worked on the airplanes, and they were required to fly in them first to ensure the crafts were air-worthy. In this way, they guaranteed that their work was excellent. They bet their own lives on it. “A lot of things would work a lot better now if that was still the case,” her father said then. He loved her so much that he was overprotective of her, but she was a late-in-life baby, after all.
When she was younger, he took her to the observation deck at Stapleton Airport, when people could still do such things, and together, they stood, watching the sleek jets race down the runway, lift into the air, and climb toward the clouds. A little later, Lillie and her parents boarded one and flew to Pennsylvania to see her father’s friend, Bob, and his family. Lillie’s father met Bob during the war when they worked on planes.
The Pennsylvania trip was the first time she flew. Her father told her the ride would feel “just like sitting in our living room,” and he explained all the frightening noises—bumpy sounds of suitcases being loaded into the cargo hold as the plane sat on the tarmac, loud thumps of the landing gear locking into the underbelly of the jet after takeoff, the squeal of the ailerons being lowered from the wings as they descended through the clouds. He taught Lillie how to swallow with her mouth open to release the pressure in her ears and make them pop. He gave her a peppermint, advising her to let the candy dissolve slowly on her tongue, and then he teased her mother, telling her that the ailerons scraped the snow on the Allegheny Mountains as they passed through the clouds. They all laughed together.
Once, when she was given a writing assignment to interview her parents about their lives, she asked her father what the war had been like. He was reluctant to speak about his experiences, so instead, she wrote about him and the closeness he felt to Bob and his family, people who were “Easterners,” and city-dwellers, different in many ways from the Porters and their western Nebraska wheat-farming heritage.
Lillie wrote that her father’s eyes filled with tears when he talked of how Bob’s brother was killed when his plane was shot down in North Africa while the United States troops were fighting against the notorious German Rommel.
“I was supposed to go there,” he said. “My orders were changed at the last minute and I was sent to Missouri instead.” He got a faraway look in his eyes then. But Lillie knew the rest anyway. He reported for duty at Rosecrans Field in St. Joseph, and Lillie’s mother, his high school sweetheart, rode the train from Nebraska with his parents and married him in St. Joe. Bob was stationed there, too.
Lillie wrote of how, when her grandfather died, the first person her father called was Bob. It was the only time she ever heard her father’s voice break. He sat, holding the black receiver to his ear, tears streaming down his face until he could croak out the words. “We lost Dad,” he said. “Oh, God, Bob. We lost Dad.”
Her own throat went dry whenever she remembered that call. She dug in her purse, found a peppermint, untwisted the wrapper and popped it in her mouth. Lillie had never known a friendship like that.
Now, standing next to Amelia Earhart’s car, Lillie thought that if her father had been Earhart’s mechanic, not only would her Lockheed Electra have been air-worthy, but he would have insisted that the aviatrix learn the intricacies of the plane’s radio. As it was, Earhart, hurrying to meet other pressing flight-preparation commitments, apparently skipped some of those radio details. When she was flying across the Pacific, trying desperately to find tiny Howland Island, her distress calls to the coast guard ship, Itasca, alerted everyone to her presence, but she could not hear their responses. When Earhart’s plane disappeared in the Pacific Ocean in 1937, Lillie’s parents were juniors in high school.
But now, both of her parents were dead, Lillie long ago grew into an adult, and flying was no fun at all. Not to mention all the extra hassles and worries caused these days by the threats of terrorists or just plain goofy people. Lillie knew she could still try to learn to fly airplanes herself, but she no longer wanted to. She could drive wherever she needed to go and that suited her.
When Carla invited her to come to the Lincoln Highway conference, Lillie jumped at the chance to get away from Laramie while her literature students enjoyed the last few days of spring break. She joined Carla and Roger beside a glimmering golden vehicle with a long front end and a small enclosed seat for two in the rear.
“Look, Lil,” Carla said. “This belonged to D.W. Griffith. The starlets must have loved this car. It’d be like riding in your own private carriage.”
Roger stood between and just a step behind the two women. “This car appeared in the 1933 movie, ‘My Lips Betray,’” he said.
Lillie stepped back to survey the drawn-out snout of the vehicle, which she discovered was a 1923 Hispano Suiza Victoria Town Car. “Such sweet lines,” she said. Her shoulder came level with, but didn’t touch Roger’s upper arm.
Carla cupped hands around her face and peered into the back seat. Lillie moved toward Carla so she could look too, but before she could do so, Carla said, “With the chauffeur all the way up front, this is definitely a car made for love.”
At that comment, images of the lengthy carriage ride of the lovers in Flaubert’s Madame Bovary flashed into Lillie’s mind. Lillie backed away just as Roger stepped forward. Lillie’s shoulder bumped against his chest. “Oh, I’m so sorry,” she said. At the same time, he said, “Pardon me.”
Lillie’s face burned. Roger stared at Carla’s back. She evidently hadn’t noticed the collision because she continued concentrating on the interior of the car.
Lillie cleared her throat and said, “I was picturing how they looked stepping out of this car and onto the red carpet on Oscar night. Can’t you just imagine the women wearing those gorgeous sequined gowns, like the one over there?” She gestured to a mannequin standing next to a 1934 Pierce-Arrow Limousine.
Roger seized the opportunity to change the subject. “That’s a great car, but see the one next to it? It’s a Kissel. I saw you looking at Earhart’s car earlier. This one was made by the same company. I’ve driven it.”
“Really? They let you drive these cars?”
“Not all of them, of course. Not Earhart’s, I’m afraid. We’re a little extra-protective of hers. Be fun to drive hers, wouldn’t it, though? But there are a few, like this Kissel, that we take to parades sometimes.”
Lillie asked about the Snowy Range Rally. “If that’s even what it’s called,” she said. “I only know that I see lots of antique cars traveling the Snowy Range Road between Laramie and Saratoga in the summer.”
Roger nodded. “I know that road. Beautiful scenery. Far as I know, we haven’t participated in that rally. Seems like it’s usually about the same time as the Fourth of July parade here. “
“How do you keep the cars road-worthy?”
Roger smoothed his thick mustache. “I’m a mechanic,” he said. “My hobby is restoring vintage cars.”
“Ah,” Lillie said. “That must be fun, but I’ll bet it’s a lot of work. Time- consuming?”
“Can be.”
Carla returned to them. “What’s time-consuming?”
“Roger restores antique cars so he can drive them in parades.”
“Oh,” Carla said. “Do you ever take passengers?”
“We do sometimes take passengers. We often take dignitaries in our cars during parades and special events. The Grand Marshals of the St. Patrick’s Day parade rode with us just last week.”
“I don’t suppose you ever let visitors like us ride along, though.” Carla crossed her arms over her chest.
“Not usually,” he said. “But you can sit in that Model T right over there and pretend you’re driving it. Did you ladies bring cameras? I’ll be glad to take your picture.”
Before they left, Roger said, “I’ll check into the Snowy Range Rally. That would really be fun.”
“Maybe we could ride along for that,” Carla suggested. “I’ll bet I could get the history department to sponsor a car. There’s plenty of time to talk Jay into that.” Jay was Carla’s sometime boyfriend and next in line to be the department’s chairman.
“I’d like to drive one sometime,” Lillie said before she could stop herself.
Roger said, “Lots of folks tell me that same thing, but that’s up to the owner. He lets me work on them once in awhile because I insist on driving before anyone else does. That way I know they’re safe to go.”
Lillie swallowed the undissolved chunk of peppermint candy whole. She bit her lip so she wouldn’t cough, but her eyes watered. She blinked several times to prevent any tears from spilling down her cheeks.
Apparently unaware of Lillie’s distress, Carla said, “Most people aren’t that careful.”
Roger shrugged.
Recovering, Lillie said, “Most people should be that careful.”
“A lot of things would be a heck of a lot better if they were,” Roger said.
Lillie said, “My dad used to say that.”
“Smart man.”
“I always thought so.”
Carla made a show of looking at her watch. This was not unusual for her if Lillie or any other woman appeared to be making inroads with a man Carla flirted with first. “I hate to, but we really must go. Don’t want to miss the video about traveling the Lincoln Highway through Nebraska.” She thanked Roger for his time and led the way out of the museum.
Roger hurried to hold the door for them. When she and Carla reached Carla’s Honda, Lillie walked around the car to the passenger side. As she waited for Carla to unlock the car, she looked back at the museum building. Roger still stood at the glass double-doors, watching them. He smiled at Lillie and raised his hand in farewell. She returned the gesture and climbed into the compact.
“Carla,” she said, “are you and Jay a steady item now?”
“You might say so.” She backed the vehicle from the parking spot.
“Do you think he’ll really spring for sponsoring a car in the rally?”
“Good chance,” Carla replied. She pulled around the line of parked cars and followed the exit signs so that they drove past the front of the museum again, slowing for the several speed bumps along the way. “Men usually do whatever I ask them to do,” she said. “It’s all in how you ask. Wait and see, Lillie. I’ll bet you’ll learn a lot from this experience.”
They slowed for a speed bump in front of the big double-doors. With a great deal of relief, Lillie noticed that Roger had already gone inside.

Carla’s plans to ride along in a car with Roger for the Snowy Range Rally fell flat. Her suggestion to Jay that the history department sponsor a car for the rally was a big hit, though. Carla hadn’t known that Jay’s father was a huge antique car buff, and he lent them his restored Model A. Jay insisted that Carla ride with him, but they made arrangements for Lillie to ride in the car entered by the Forney Transportation Museum.
“They told us it wouldn’t be Earhart’s car,” Carla said. “That guide—what was his name? Ricky?”
“Roger,” Lillie supplied, smiling. She was not surprised that Carla already forgot his name. She was such a love-‘em-and-leave-‘em-behind type that Jay would likely be on his own in the not-too-distant future as well.
“Oh, right. Well, he remembered that you’d been interested in that one. I didn’t even give that a thought. Even with so many extra people going through the museum that weekend, he remembered you were looking at her car. Isn’t that amazing?”
She waved as she and Jay headed down the street, following several others driving a variety of vintage vehicles. While some rallies featured timed races wherein entrants began their journeys at staggered intervals, drivers in this event simply traveled the mountain road at their leisure, stopping at pre-arranged checkpoints along the way.
When the museum’s car arrived in the registration line, Roger was not at the wheel. Instead, one of the museum’s board members and his wife, dressed to the nines in 1930s outfits, complete with shoes and hats to match, sat in the front.
“Are you Lillie Porter?” the man asked. When she nodded, he said, “Roger is coming along in another car soon. He said you enjoyed seeing Earhart’s Kissel when you visited the museum.” He tapped the steering wheel. “We don’t often drive the Kissels. This is a Pierce-Arrow. It’s fun, too.” He extended his hand. “Pleasure to meet someone who’s as fascinated by these old cars as we are.”
“Thank you,” Lillie said as they shook. She tapped her forehead. “I love your hats.”
In response, he touched the brim of his plaid cap. His wife, who wore a close-fitting cloche reminiscent of those Earhart favored, said, “He never goes anywhere without his hat.”
“Well, I don’t feel completely dressed without one,” he said.
Lillie laughed. “My father always said that very same thing. He wore a Stetson, though.”
A Reo pulled up behind them. The driver honked the horn. To their delight, the sound was ah-ooo-gah, ah-ooo-gah. Just the way Lillie heard those classic car horns in the movies she’d seen.
“We’d better be on our way,” the museum board member said. “Roger’s not far behind. Have fun today.”
Not long after that, Roger arrived. He stepped from the car.
After they exchanged pleasantries, Lillie said, “I don’t remember seeing this car in the museum.”
“It’s my grandfather’s Hupmobile,” he said, placing his hand on the hood. ‘They quit making these during World War II.”
The rally began with a leg from Laramie to the tiny town of Centennial. After they negotiated the town traffic and were traveling on the two-lane highway, Roger came to a turn-off and stopped.
“Thought you might like to drive a little while,” he said. “This is a flat stretch, isn’t it?”
“Oh, but it’s your grandfather’s. I couldn’t.”
“He’d be pleased that someone who loves old cars so much would take a turn at the wheel. I know it’s not like Earhart’s car, but it’s the best I could do.”
“I’m flattered that you remembered me,” Lillie said. “You must see dozens of people who like her car.”
“I remembered the way you looked at all of the cars,” he said. “Respectful. Sincerely interested. You’d be surprised at how many people come to the museum to just pass the time.”
When she was settled in the driver’s seat, he said, “Earhart drove seven-thousand miles with her mother when they visited the national parks one summer. I studied up on it.”
“You did?”
“Well, you inspired me,” he said. “Oh, here, I almost forgot.” He handed her a black driving cap. He adjusted his own beige plaid cap. “I really don’t like to be without a hat of some kind.”
Lillie took the cap. She fingered the brim. “I usually don’t wear one, but I’m getting to like them pretty well myself,” she said.
“They let me borrow this one from the museum. You don’t have to wear it if you don’t want to, but Earhart’s car was displayed with the top down, and maybe you can pretend this vehicle is like that.”
She put her hat on, then removed it quickly.
“Something the matter?”
She ran her finger around the inside of the cap. “Something’s sticky.” She held the cap so he could see. “It’s tape,” she said.
He blushed. “Sorry. We put double-stick tape on the caps so they don’t blow off along the parade routes.”
“No, no,” she said. She put the cap on, adjusting it and then tapping her forehead to secure the tape. “I didn’t know real people used this,” she said. “I thought the tape was just for the display models.”
They switched places in Centennial, at the base of the Snowy Range Mountains. Roger said, “It’s warm enough that I could open the windows during this short leg. That’d be sort of like driving with the top down.”
They made the straight steep climb and then followed the gentle curve beside Corner Mountain on the way to the ranger station that served as the first checkpoint for the mountain road. Some of the cars were already a few miles ahead of them, and several followed. The climb made Lillie think of the steep angled ascent of an airplane and the feeling of being pushed back into her seat as the jet took off. The curling road seemed like the banking of an airplane as it turned toward the route planned for its final destination. Unlike the aircraft, there were no startling loud bumps and thumps, just the constant purring of the car’s engine and the rush of the wind in her ears. When they stopped at the ranger station, both of them got out of the car to go inside and sign the checkpoint sheet. The wind was stronger, shaking the long limbs of the pines and the heart-shaped leaves of the aspens. Another rally participant was coming out of the building. He smiled and waved. A sudden gust swept the brown cap he wore from his head. He hurried to chase after the hat before it blew across the parking lot and caught it just before it would have rolled onto the highway.
Lillie exchanged a glance with Roger. He put his hand out, gesturing for her to go first toward the building. As she did, she realized that the gust was really a strong steady breeze. When Roger hurried to open the door for her, she smiled and thanked him. His cap was still on. So was hers.


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Lori Van Pelt is an award-winning poet, fiction and nonfiction author. Her short fiction won the Western Writers of America Spur Award in 2006 and has been published in several national anthologies.

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